Monday, February 22, 2010
Another week inside my head
Every time I pass by my reflection today I cringe. I look so tired and slightly frayed around the edges. I haven't been sleeping all that well the past week. I've been obsessively worrying again. My oldest daughter is off to NY with a few friends for Spring Break. That isn't all that worrisome, but they have decided to make it a road trip. The drive from Halifax to NY is 900+ Kilometers, a 17 hour drive - Ugh!
I hate obsessing over things I have no control over; it changes me, I become distant, withdrawn and anxiety consumes me. I get all knotted up inside and the binding that holds me together tightens with each breath; it brings on an uneasy feeling that twists, flutters and eats me up inside. I wish I wasn't like this.
So this week I will hide in my house, in my room and hide in my obsessive thoughts and worries. Only when she returns home safe and sound will I be able to breath a sigh of relief. It is going to be a very bumpy week folks!